Isaiah 64:4 - Since ancient times no one has heard, no ear has perceived, no eye has seen any God besides you, who acts on behalf of those who wait for him.
The alarm goes off. I groan and roll myself toward the edge of the bed and sit up.
My eyes scan the room and latch onto my dresser and the clock sitting on it. I shake my head. I must be still dreaming, I’d thought. But I wasn’t.
The lines separating the dresser drawers instead of being straight were at a diagonal. So we’re the numbers on my clock, as if there was a shadow making the numbers three dimensional.
I’d staggered to my bathroom, clutching the door and then the side of the counter. As I tried to follow my morning routine, I knew I had to get to my optometrist, but I didn’t trust myself to drive, so I’d called my care giver and my doctor.
I’d been able to get an emergency appointment, and spent the next hour with my doctor running tests on my eyes. We discovered that the double vision was worse when I looked to the left while I faced straight ahead.
The doctor told me to go to the emergency room and get checked out, because though he knew what my eyes were doing, but he didn’t know why. In the weeks that followed I saw one doctor after the other.
Double vision can sometimes be caused by medications, migraines, failure of the muscles to the eyes and several eye diseases. Treatment can include strengthening the eye muscles through exercise, medications and surgery. Since I suffered from many of the causes for double vision, it became difficult to treat me.
It was something I had to learn to live with, but it didn’t come without changes in my life:
I could no longer drive.
Reading became difficult.
Even when watching TV I found it difficult to make out letters.
I had to retrain myself to perform activities of daily living.
Double vision can cause you to see two sets of everything. With time, I learned that I would have good days and bad days; and found my own way of moving through my world, and how to distinguish which of the two things I was looking at was real and which one was the double.
Medicalnewstoday.com in their article, “Why am I Seeing Double?”, tells us that double vision causes a person to see double images where there should be one, and that the double can be side by side, on top of each other, or both. The article also provides in depth causes and treatments such as using glasses with prisms in the lenses, wearing an eye patch, and surgery on the eye muscles.
Coping with double vision can be difficult, but armed with knowledge about the condition, treatment for it, and the right support system of people who understand what you’re going through can go a long way in helping you live life to the fullest.
Know also that God acts on your behalf. He can bring you through the turmoil of treatments, and can help you accept the way your life will be after all the treatments have been tried. You may feel like you can’t function in your world, but God sees your pain and will comfort you in ways that you can’t even imagine.
Karen Dalske is a freelance writer, public speaker, is active in her church and writes her blogs out of her own experiences of pain, illness and loss.